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              AaOr… maOM jaaga ga[-

iksaI gaaD,I ko Éknao kI Aavaaja Aa[-. ifr drvaajao pr GaMTI bajaI. maOMnao baD,I baoTI kI Aaor doKto hue kha– “doK eoSvayaa- kaOna Aayaa hO.”
maorI inagaahoM BaI drvaajao kI Aaor hI iTkI qaI. drvaajao pr saaOMdyaa- AaOr Ainala KD,o qao.ek laMbao Arsao baad saaOMdyaa- kao doK haoMz ksamasaanao lagao. samaJa maoM nahIM Aa rha qaa ik PyaarI baoTI kao daOD, kr galao lagaa}M yaa hmaarI [j,j,at QaUla maoM imalaanao vaalaI kao doK mauÐh maaoD, laUÐ.
baocaOnaI sao maaqaa Gaumanao lagaa. saaOMdyaa- daOD, kr galao lagaanaa caahIÊ pr ]sakI dIdI eoSvayaa- kao yah gaMvaara nahIM qaa. vah icallaa[- “Ék jaaÊ vahIM pr. yah tumharo hI kmaao-M ka natIjaa hO. maaÐ kI [sa isqait kI ijammaodar isaf- tU hI hO. tumharo hI karNa [nhoM baI pIÊ maQaumaoh jaOsaI baImaairyaaÐ hu[- hOM. Aba tao [nhoM ibanaa dvaa ko naIMd BaI nahIM AatI.”
CaoTI baoTI maaOyaa- nao mauJao jaldI sao naIMd kI gaaolaI dokr Aarama krnao ko ilae dUsaro kmaro maoM lao gayaI. naIMd kI gaaolaI nao tnatnaato nasaaoM kao SaaMt kr mauJao Apnao AagaaoSa maoM lao ilayaa.
AaQaI rat kao jaba hlkI saI naIMd KulaI tba doKI ik maoro bagala maoM maaOyaa- ko saaqa–saaqa saaOMdyaa- BaI saao[- hO. maorI inagaahoM saaOMdyaa- pr jaa iTkI. vahI maasaUma caohra² vahI Baaolaapna² vahI maorI PyaarI saI gauiD,yaa. @yaaoM ikyaa [sanao eosaaÆ @yaa kmaIM rh ga[- qaI hmaaro Pyaar maoMÆ hmanao tao kBaI BaI ]sao laD,kI haonao ka ehsaasa tk nahIM haonao idyaa. ApnaI hOisayat sao baZ,kr pZ,ayaa–ilaKayaa. [sakI saBaI maaÐgaoM pUrI kI. yao tao hmaarI sabasao samaJadar AaOr bauiwmaana baoTI qaI.ema\ saoT kI prIxaa maoM phlaa sqaana laakr ba`amhNa samaaja maoM hmaara isar fË sao }Ðcaa krvaa dI qaI. saba kI jaubaaM pr ek hI baat “baoTI hao tao paNDoya jaI kI baoTI jaOsaI $pÊ gauNaÊ &ana saBaI maoM Avvala.”
hma fUlao nahIM samaato qao ApnaI baoiTyaaoM kI cacaa- saunakr. [nako maaЖbaap haonao ka hmaoM naaja qaa.baD,I baoTI eoSvayaa- kI SaadI ko ilae ek saMpnna ba`amhNa Kanadana sao svayaM hI p`stava Aayaa.hmanao ]sakI SaadI baD,o QaUma–Qaama sao kI. ]sako jaanao ko baad sao Gar bahut saUnaa–saUnaa laganao lagaa. hma yah saaocakr AaOr BaI jyaada duiKt hao jaato ik jaba saaOMdyaa- Aaor maaOyaa- BaI calaI jaaeMgaI tba hma kOsao rhoMgaoÆ
saaOMdyaa- ApnaI pZ,a[- maoM vyast rhtI. maOM tD,ko caar bajao hI ]zkr naasta–Kanaa banaa dotI.naagaond` BaI jaldI tOyaar haokr ]sao ka^laoja ko ilae basa sTa^p pr CaoD, Aato. saaMJa Z,lao hI vah Gar laaOTtI. idna–rat kD,I maohnat sao pZ,tI.]sakI maohnat BaI rMga laayaIÊ pZ,a[- pUrI haoto hI ek baD,I kMpnaI maoM naaOkrI imala ga[-. jaba hmanao SaadI ko ilae pUCa tao saaf [Mkar kr ga[-. hma ]sako [sa inaNa-ya kao ]sakI mah<vakaMxaa sao jaaoD,kr SaaMt hao gae. lagaa Saayad kuC AaOr haisala krnaa caahtI hO. kuC idnaaoM baad ifr [sakI cacaa- kr laogaoM. ba`amhNa samaaja maoM hmaara pirvaar iSaxaa va saMskar kI dRiYT sao ]cca maanaa jaata qaa. yahI hmaarI pUÐjaI qaI AaOr baoiTyaaÐ hmaarI Saana.

ek idna Acaanak saaOMdyaa- nao batayaa ik vah Apnao bacapna ko ima~ Ainala sao SaadI krnaa caahtI hO. “pr Ainala tao gauPta hO na baoTaÆ” naagaond` nao saaOMdyaa- sao AaraohI saur maoM pUCa. “haД khkr ]sanao isar naIcaa kr laI. hma icaMitt hao gayao.
sauKÊ caOna va naIMd pr dImak laganaI SauÉ hao gayaI. saaOMdyaa- kI samaJadarI maRgatRYNaa laganao lagaI.vah AcCo sao jaanatI hO ik ]saka yah kdma hmaoM samaaja maoM khIM mauMh idKanao laayak nahIM CaoD,ogaa. “nahIMÊ maOM pIiZ,yaaoM kI banaayaI p`itYza pr AaÐca nahIM Aanao dUÐgaa. kBaI BaI [sa SaadI kao svaIkar nahIM kÉMgaa.”naagaond` nao Apnaa fOsalaa saunaa idyaa. maOMnao saaOMdyaa- kao samaJaanao kI bahut kaoiSaSa kI pr vah cauPpI saaQaI rhI.Aaja maaÐ kI mamata p`oma–baMQana sao Aagao hlkI p`tIt hu[-.
tIsa saalaaoM maoM phlaI baar maOMnao naagaond` ka Ìw $p doKa qaa. vao garja rho qao. icaMGaaD, rho qao. saaOMdyaa- baut saI KD,I qaI. “jaaÊ calaI jaa yahaÐ sao. yaid tuJao vahI psaMd hO tao saaoca lao hma mar gae toro ilae AaOr hma BaI saaoca laoMgao ik hmaarI dao hI baoiTyaaÐ hO.ifr kBaI ApnaI Sa@la mat idKanaa. jaaÊ calaI jaa.”
maOM AaOr maaOyaa- kzmaUit- kI trh doK rho qao.dRZ, inaScayaI va saahsaI baoTI yahaÐ BaI Apnao inaNa-ya pr AD,I rhI.mamat<va kao raOMdÊ p`Naya–baMQana kI Daor sao iKMcaI calaI ga[-.
bahut jagahÐsaa[- hu[-. khIM BaI Aanaa–jaanaa duSvaar hao gayaa. ba`amhNa samaaja sao hmaoM baihsÌt kr idyaa gayaa. saaOMdyaa- kI laaK AcCa[yaaoM kao ek galat kdma nao QaUimala kr idyaa. Kanadana ka hIra Aba kaoyalaa laganao lagaa.Aba icaMta maaOyaa- kI satanao lagaI. kOsao [saka byaah haogaaÆ kaOna ba`amhNa hmaaro Gar irSta jaaoDo,gaaÆ raoto–raoto AaÐKoM pqara gayaIM.AaÐsauAaoM nao BaI saaqa CaoD, idyaa.dd- naasaUr bana gayaa. naagaond` va mauJao daonaaoM kao baI pI va maQaumaoh nao Apnao capoT maoM lao ilayaa.
khto hOM va@t baD,o sao baD,o ja#ma kao Bar dota hO.pr ja#ma naasaUr bana jaae tao…. naagaond` nao tao Apnao Aap kao saMBaala ilayaa pr maora ja#ma naasaUr bana gayaa. Da^@Tr badla–badla kr har gae. idla pr lagao ja#ma kao hTanaa Aasaana nahIM qaa.AaiKrkar naagaond` mauJao kaM]isalar ko pasa lao gayao. bahut saarI baatoM ]sanao hmasao pUCI ifr hmaoM baahr Baoja idyaa.naagaond` sao kha– “ jaOsao BaI hao ek baar babaIta jaI kao saaOMdyaa- sao imalavaa dIijae. tBaI Saayad saba kuC zIk hao paeÊ Anyaqaa mauiSkla hO.”
naagaond` nao k[- idnaaoM kI kSamaaoMkSa ko baad samaaja ko dikyaanausaI Z,ro- kao raOMdkr inaNa-ya lao hI ilayaa. saaOMdyaa- kao maorI isqait sao Avagat krayaa. Saayad [saIilae Aaja saaOMdyaa- yahaÐ Aa[- hO.naasaUr ja#ma Aaja AaÐsaU banakr bah rha hO.naja,roM saaOMdyaa- sao hT nahIM rhIM. ]sasao ilapTkr raonao ka mana kr rha hO.pUCnao ka mana kr rha hO ik @yaUM ikyaa [sanao eosaaÆ @yaa vah nahIM jaanatI qaI [sa ba`amhNa samaaja kaoÆ @yaa yahI saMskar hmanao idyao qaoÆ @yaa kmaIM kI qaI hmanaoÆ
maora haqa baokabaU hao saaOMdyaa- ko maaqao kao sahlaanao lagaa.vah jaaga ]zI. mauJao doK ]sakI naja,rMo Jauk ga[M-.AaÐKoM Bar AayaIM. “mauJao maaf kr dao mammaIÊ maOM tumhoM [sa halat maoM nahIM doK saktI.” khtI hu[- maoro galao laga f,UT pD,I.
pqarae kucalao jaj,baat )dyaaoM kI tpna sao psaIja gayao. AEauQaar AbaaQa bahnao lagao. isasakto–isasakto baaolaI “maoro [sa kdma ka pirNaama [tnaa BayaMkr haogaa maOM nahI jaanatI qaI. yaid jaanatI tao kBaI SaadI nahIM krtI. isaf- mana–hI–mana Ainala kao caahkr Apnaa jaIvana gaujaar dotI.”
maOM baaolaI “nahIM baoTI hmaaro samaaja maooM BaI tao ek sao baZ,kr ek laD,ko hOM naaÆ @yaa hma tumharo ilae nahIMZÐ,UZ,toÆ @yaa [tnaa BaI ivaSvaasa nahIM qaa hma prÆ”
“nahIM maaÐ baat Pyaar kI qaIÊ ivaSvaasa kI nahIM. Ainala kao maOM bacapna sao caahtI hUÐ. vah bahut AcCa hO maaÐ. ]sanao pga–pga pr mauJao p`orNaa dI. sahayata kI. maOM yah nahIM khtI ik tumalaaogaao nao kuC nahIM ik,yaa. tumalaaogaao ko ibanaa maOM kuC nahIM kr patI. ApnaI hOisayat sao baZ,kr hma bahnaaoM kI prvairSa kI.hmaaro ilae ApnaI [cCaAaoM kI kubaa-naI dI. maaÐ Ainala mauJao hr samaya p`ao%saaiht kr baZ,avaa doto rho. maOMnao Apnao jaIvana maoM jaao BaI mauk,ama p`aPt ikyaa hO. vah ]nhIM kI caah va rah hO. Aaja BaI vaao maora ]tnaa hI #yaala rKto hOM ijatnaa SaadI sao phlao rKto qao.vao ek AcCo [Msaana ko saaqa–saaqa AcCo ipta va pit BaI hOM. maOM duinayaaÐ maoM sabasao KuSanasaIba hUÐ maaÐ ik mauJao Ainala jaOsaa jaIvana saaqaI imalaa.pr jaba mauJao tuma laaogaaoM ka #yaala Aata hO tao lagata hO ik [sa QartI pr mauJasao baD,a papI kao[- nahIMÊ ijasanao Apnao hI janmakarkaoM kao dd- ko saagar maoM Z,kola idyaa. mauJao maaf kr dao maaв maOM Aaja BaI AkolaI ijandgaI gaujaar saktI hUÐ pr tumhoM eosaa nahIM doK saktI.”
saaOMdyaa- khtI jaa rhI hO. raotI jaa rhI hO.ho Bagavaana² yao kOsaa maaoD, hO jaIvana kaÆ maorI baoTI jaao Aaja BaI hma saBaI ko sauK ko ilae Apnaa sava-sva nyaaoCavar krnao kao tOyaar hO AaOr hma kovala samaaja ko ilae Apnaa va ApnaI baoTI kI KuSaI ka galaa GaaoMTnaa caahto hOM. [samaoM Ainala ka @yaa daoYa hO ik vah vaOSya hO. maanavata AaOr ba`amhNa%va tao ]samaoM kUT–kUT kr Baro hOM. yao jaat–pat kI dIvaaroM @yaaoMÆ hr GaD,I vah maorI baoTI kao plakaoM pr rKta hO. hmaoM AaOr @yaa caaiheÆ samaaja ka @yaaÊ vaao tao hmaIM sao banata hO. yaid hma iSaixat vaga- hI samaaja kI dik,yaanaUsaI irvaajaaoM kao [tnaI dRZ,ta sao palana kroMgaoÊ tao jaao hmaoM doKkr Aagao baZ,nao vaalao hOMÊ vao tao [sao AadSa- hI maana laoMgao.hmaoM hI jaaitÊ vaga-Ê Qama- Baod kao na maanakr maanavata ko rMga maoM rMganaa hO. ba`amhNa samaaja maoM janma laona sao hI ba`amhNa%va nahIM Aa jaata. ba`amhNa%va maanavata ka $p hO.Aba hmaoM ba`amhNa pr nahIM ba`amhNa%va pr bala donaa hO. [sakI SauÉAat krnaI hI haogaI.
saarI BaavanaaeM bavaMDr kI trh idlaaoM–idmaaga maoM maMDranao lagaIM. lagaa bahut saao caukI. Aba jaaganao ka samaya Aa gayaa hO.plakoM BaarI laganao lagaaIM.Aba maUMdI nahIM jaatI. maOMnao BaIMgaI plakoM ]zayaI. saaOMdyaa- Aba BaI isasak rhI hO. maaOyaa- AlasaayaI hu[- ibastr pr pD,I hO. GaD,I doKI tao Ch baja rho qao.lagaa Aba sacamauca jaaganao ka va@t hao gayaa hO. maOMnao maaOyaa- kao sahlaato hue kha “ cala ]z baoTa Aaja Gar maoM bahut kama hO. phlaI baar saaOMdyaa- AaOr Ainala AayaoM hOM. Aaja sa%yanaarayaNa Bagavaana kI kqaa saunaoMgao.”

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